Finlay Paul Buttress

finlay paul
01/ may 2008
age 0
in mummys belly my angel fell asleep .
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finlays story

on 22 nd of september , i found out i was pregnant i was sooo exited , me and my partner of 5 years
daniel had been trying for a baby for 5 months , daniel was so exited .
on the 12 of january ai had a bleed , i was so upset , i phoned the midwife she told me to sleep on
it so i prayed my baby would hang on in there and he did , everything was going ok , apart from the
usual complants in pregnancy (bad back ,morning sickness ect) i had bought everything for my baby by
the time i was 4 months , i just needed my pram .
then at 17 weeks i had another bleed , i went straight to the hospital , they done a scan and said
all is well ,just take it easy so i did , then around 18 weeks i had a fit for some unknown reason
,i have neaver suffered with this before . there was no explanation baby is fine they said ,just
take it easy , i went to the midwife every week till my 20 weeks scan .
on the 24 of aprill at 3.45 i had my 20 weeks scan i should have been exited but for some reason i
didnt feel too good . the sonographa came she started to chck baby over , she said all looks well so
far , then she got to finlays brain , she took a still image , then she said im so sorry there is
something wrong , i just cryed ,dan was in shock . then be 4 i knew it there was a consultat saying
my baby has a severe form of hydrocephalis , i dindt understand , why me , i just cryed , he told me
my baby would either die in the womb , or live till he was 2 , how could this be , he also said he
would not be able to walk or talk , i couldnt look at him , i didnt want to belive it
whyyyyyyyyyyyyy meeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!! i then asked i know my baby is ill but what is it , he told
us boy ,daniel just started crying i couldnt cope ,i had failed him and our son , i then said what
do you think i should do to the consultant he told me its time to say good bye to your little boy
,its for the best ,and i knew it was .
on the 1 st of may 2008 , i was induceted , my beautifull baby boy was born at 5.39 weighing 1 lb 1
once , he was so beautifull how could there be anything wrong i said the damage is on the inside ,
he told me finlay would have look like any other person , but wouldnt be able to walk or talk , i
spent the night with my baby just cuddleing him and kissing him , i also sang to him you are my
sunshine , on the 2 nd of may i had finlay paul buttress blessed , he had his hand prints and foot
prints done , at 1.00 on the 2 nd of may i said goodbye to my son , that was the hardist thing i
will ever do .

i neaver thought i would get to hold my son , but on the 10 th of may i got a phone call off the
funeral directors , they said finlay is here would you like to see him , i agreed , ias i walked
into the room , i seen my beautifull baby boy lay on a purple cloth , i couldnt stop crying i kepot
tight hold of my son , my mum and my sister came with me , they seen how much i was herting , they
told me to let him go to heaven now , sso i did , they left , i held my son , and said a prayer to
god to look after my baby boy till i come to his garden , i said our father who arnt in heaven , i
kissed my boy and placed him in his little white coffin , i then sang you are my sunshine , and had
my last ever kiss off my baby boy , i will neaver forget that !! i hold that kis deep in my heart !!


on the 12th of may finlay paul buttress was laid to rest , mummy loves you so much baby boy , i now
hold you in my heart not my hand s

sweet dreams angel xxxxxxxxxx


thank you to every one who has wrote on this page it means alot , and it helps me get throu ,
knowing that people care thank you xxx


sweetdreams finlay paul buttress xxxxxxxx

please donate in memory of my child , all money raised will be donated to the hydrocephalis and
spina bifida charity , done at justgiving.co.uk/finlaypaulbuttress , thank you x

"Death of a Child"
Sorry I didn't get to stay.
To laugh and run and play.
To be there by your side.
I'm sorry that I had to die.
God sent me down to be with you,
to make your loving heart anew.
To help you look up and see
Both God and little me.

Mommy, I wish I could stay.
Just like I heard you pray.
But, all the angels did cry
when they told little me goodbye.

God didn't take me cause He's mad.
He didn't send me to make you sad.
But to give us both a chance to be
a love so precious .. don't you see?

Up here no trouble do I see
and the pretty angels sing to me.
The streets of gold is where I play
you'll come here too, mommy, someday.

Until the day you join me here,
I'll love you mommy, dear.
Each breeze you feel and see,
brings love and a kiss from me.
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www.ourforeverbabies.co.uk a brillent sit that has help me alot ... xxx for support after m/c still
birth and children ...xxx