| Location | Cheshire |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 01/05/2008 |
| Date of Death | 01/05/2008 |
| Visitors | 5,368 since 08/05/2008 |
| Creator |
finlay paul
01/ may 2008
age 0
in mummys belly my angel fell asleep .
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finlays story
on 22 nd of september , i found out i was pregnant i was sooo exited , me and my partner of 5 years
daniel had been trying for a baby for 5 months , daniel was so exited .
on the 12 of january ai had a bleed , i was so upset , i phoned the midwife she told me to sleep on
it so i prayed my baby would hang on in there and he did , everything was going ok , apart from the
usual complants in pregnancy (bad back ,morning sickness ect) i had bought everything for my baby by
the time i was 4 months , i just needed my pram .
then at 17 weeks i had another bleed , i went straight to the hospital , they done a scan and said
all is well ,just take it easy so i did , then around 18 weeks i had a fit for some unknown reason
,i have neaver suffered with this before . there was no explanation baby is fine they said ,just
take it easy , i went to the midwife every week till my 20 weeks scan .
on the 24 of aprill at 3.45 i had my 20 weeks scan i should have been exited but for some reason i
didnt feel too good . the sonographa came she started to chck baby over , she said all looks well so
far , then she got to finlays brain , she took a still image , then she said im so sorry there is
something wrong , i just cryed ,dan was in shock . then be 4 i knew it there was a consultat saying
my baby has a severe form of hydrocephalis , i dindt understand , why me , i just cryed , he told me
my baby would either die in the womb , or live till he was 2 , how could this be , he also said he
would not be able to walk or talk , i couldnt look at him , i didnt want to belive it
whyyyyyyyyyyyyy meeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!! i then asked i know my baby is ill but what is it , he told
us boy ,daniel just started crying i couldnt cope ,i had failed him and our son , i then said what
do you think i should do to the consultant he told me its time to say good bye to your little boy
,its for the best ,and i knew it was .
on the 1 st of may 2008 , i was induceted , my beautifull baby boy was born at 5.39 weighing 1 lb 1
once , he was so beautifull how could there be anything wrong i said the damage is on the inside ,
he told me finlay would have look like any other person , but wouldnt be able to walk or talk , i
spent the night with my baby just cuddleing him and kissing him , i also sang to him you are my
sunshine , on the 2 nd of may i had finlay paul buttress blessed , he had his hand prints and foot
prints done , at 1.00 on the 2 nd of may i said goodbye to my son , that was the hardist thing i
will ever do .
i neaver thought i would get to hold my son , but on the 10 th of may i got a phone call off the
funeral directors , they said finlay is here would you like to see him , i agreed , ias i walked
into the room , i seen my beautifull baby boy lay on a purple cloth , i couldnt stop crying i kepot
tight hold of my son , my mum and my sister came with me , they seen how much i was herting , they
told me to let him go to heaven now , sso i did , they left , i held my son , and said a prayer to
god to look after my baby boy till i come to his garden , i said our father who arnt in heaven , i
kissed my boy and placed him in his little white coffin , i then sang you are my sunshine , and had
my last ever kiss off my baby boy , i will neaver forget that !! i hold that kis deep in my heart !!
on the 12th of may finlay paul buttress was laid to rest , mummy loves you so much baby boy , i now
hold you in my heart not my hand s
sweet dreams angel xxxxxxxxxx
thank you to every one who has wrote on this page it means alot , and it helps me get throu ,
knowing that people care thank you xxx
sweetdreams finlay paul buttress xxxxxxxx
please donate in memory of my child , all money raised will be donated to the hydrocephalis and
spina bifida charity , done at justgiving.co.uk/finlaypaulbuttress , thank you x
"Death of a Child"
Sorry I didn't get to stay.
To laugh and run and play.
To be there by your side.
I'm sorry that I had to die.
God sent me down to be with you,
to make your loving heart anew.
To help you look up and see
Both God and little me.
Mommy, I wish I could stay.
Just like I heard you pray.
But, all the angels did cry
when they told little me goodbye.
God didn't take me cause He's mad.
He didn't send me to make you sad.
But to give us both a chance to be
a love so precious .. don't you see?
Up here no trouble do I see
and the pretty angels sing to me.
The streets of gold is where I play
you'll come here too, mommy, someday.
Until the day you join me here,
I'll love you mommy, dear.
Each breeze you feel and see,
brings love and a kiss from me.
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www.ourforeverbabies.co.uk a brillent sit that has help me alot ... xxx for support after m/c still
birth and children ...xxx
Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Might Not Be Lit Until Monday Next Week It's My Birthday On Saturday So I Will Be Missing Christopher Even More Than Usual... Bless Him X
Grief Is Like A River
My grief is like a river,
I have to let it flow,
But I myself determine
Just where the banks will go.
Some days the current takes me
In waves of guilt and pain,
But there are always quiet pools
Where I can rest again.
I crash on rocks of anger;
My faith seems faint indeed,
But there are other swimmers
Who know that what I need
Are loving hands to hold me
When the waters are too swift,
And someone kind to listen
When I just seem to drift.
Grief's river is a process
Of relinquishing the past.
By swimming in hope's channels,
I'll reach the shore at last.
If I Knew
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
And call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
So I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
To stop and say "I love you,"
Instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
So I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
To make up for an oversight,
And we always get a second chance
To make everything just right.
There will always be another day
To say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance to say
Our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
And today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
And I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
Young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
Why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
You'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
For a smile, a hug, or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant someone,
What turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
And whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
And that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
You'll have no regrets about today.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
TO MY MUMMY AND DADDY
FROM ME TO YOU X
I'm calling you from heaven
Because I know how much you miss me
Please don't cry
I wanted to talk to you
Because you see I miss you too
Just before I called you
God and I were talking
He told me how sad you've been
And he didn't want to see you cry anymore
Then he told me there was one person
Who could always make you smile
So that's why I'm calling you today
I wanted to let you know I'm safe in heaven
So wipe your eyes
There's no tears here
Only beauty surrounds me now
If you get lonely
Just close your eyes and remember me
I'm there in the corner of your heart
God gave you those memories for a reason
So take them out and think of me
I'll send you my angel kisses
'Cause I love to see you smile
Well, I have to go now
"I LOVE YOU MUMMY AND DADDY"
Maybe it seemed like a short time we were together
But someday we'll be together for an eternity
Until then remember what I told you
I'm always with you
In fact I'm just a prayer away!
mummy loves you angel x
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I stood by your bed last night
I came to have a peep,
I could see that you were crying
and you found it hard to sleep,
I whispered to you softly
as you brushed away a tear,
its me I havn't left you, i'm well
i'm fine, i'm here,
I was close to you a breakfast
I watched you pour your tea,
you were thinking of the many times
your hands reached out to me,
I was with you at the shops today
you're arms were getting sore,
I longed to take your parcels
I wish I could do more,
I was with you at my grave today
you tend it with such care,
I want to reassure you, that i'm not
lying there,
I walked with you towards the house
as you fumbled for your key,
I gently put my hand on you
I smiled and said 'its me'
you looked so very tired
and sank into a chair,
I tried so hard to let you know
that I was standing there,
its possible for me to be
so near to you every day,
to say to you with certainty
I never went away,
you sat there very quietly then smiled
I think you knew,
in the stillness of the evening
I was very close to you,
now the day is over.....I smile
and watch you yawning,
and say good night, god bless,
i'll see you in the morning,
and when the time is right for you
to cross the brief divide,
i'll rush across to greet you
and we'll stand side by side,
I have so many things to show you
there is so much for you to see,
be patient, live your journey out
then come home to be with me.
Love to you and your family, from Vicky xxx
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My thoughts are with you and your family always xxx
GOD,
*.*.*.OPENED
* ...*.*. THE WINDOWS
* * .* *.*.*.* OF HEAVEN.
.*) .*) *.*.*LOOKED AT ME
. (... *.*.*.**.*.*.*AND ASKED,
..*(...) .*.*.*.*.* **.*. *WHAT IS YOUR
* ....(...) * . * . * .* *PRAYER
* .*.. *....* (...) * .*FOR
.. *..(...). *....* .*TODAY?
.* ... *.... * *. * . * .**I
. * . * . . * . *.*. * . **ANSWERED:
__00000___00000 *.*. * .* .*GOD
_0000000_0000000. * . * .*TAKE
_0000 OOOO 00000. * . * .*CARE
__0000000000000 * . ** .*OF THE
___00000000000 * . *. * . * .*PERSON
_____0000000 * . *. * . ** *.*THAT
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. * .. ** .. * . * . * .* . *.*THIS
. * . (.. *** /) * .*.*MESSAGE
* . * ( ..(_)/ ) * * .BECAUSE
* . * (_ /|.. _) . **.* THIS PERSON IS
* . * . /___.. * . .* .*SO
. * * . * . * *SPECIAL xxx
Love Vicky xx
happy valentines day x
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mummy love you happey valentines day baby boy xxx
mummy loves you x
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send mummy luck 4 2 moz baby boy , i miss you so so much xx
Twinklin Star xxx
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Love from Vicky xxx
my beautifull finlay xx
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thank you baby boo xx mummy and daddy love you x
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